Cookie of the Mind

Did you know that there’s a secret nighttime cookie popup in Salem? Totally true. It’s in an alley behind Rockafellas, which is perfect in many ways. So, so many ways. I could be mean here. Oooh so tempting. Suppress…mean…things…about…Rockafellas….OK. I think the urge is gone now. I had kind of a hilariously rough experience with those guys a few years back. It involved an interdimensional pangolin trafficker and a sack of french fries.

Anyway, I was in Goodnight Fatty last week – that’s the name of the cookie popup, Goodnight Fatty – and I was admiring the decor. These guys know their audience. It’s not your average Salemite who breezes into a dark alley for a delicious, fresh, handmade, individual cookie at 11:15pm. No, no. It’s the weirdos. The stoners who are not doing anything wrong, dammit. The vampires who are also not doing anything wrong, but look guiltier about it. The insomniacs who come in with the vampires and look significantly more pleased with their situation. Aspiring writers looking for bulls to run away from.

The place is strewn with fun toys. You know those jointed sphere things that expand? Got ’em. The little cups that you’re supposed to use to catch a ball on a string? I was suitably impressed. If it appeals to the deliriously exhausted, high, or sanguine among us, it can and will be found at Goodnight Fatty. I swear I saw a bull shuffling a set of those match-the-edge square dooleys with its front hoof one week. It was high as a kite.

But the thing I like the most about Goodnight Fatty is what I call GFTV. It’s a running loop of everything you want to see on a screen when you’re out of your mind. Melting crayons. People taking sparkly goo out of ice cube molds and squishing it between their fingers. Gushes of weird-colored fluid erupting from test tubes. I’ve never been high in my life and I could watch for years. There should be a law that GFTV must air at least five minutes for every hour of cable news. This is what connects us in these times of upheaval and strife. Our love of maroon candle wax dripping on a white sheet of paper.

So I got my cookie, spared a final loving glance at the television screen, and took off into the steamy Salem night. The cookie was thick and chewy and altogether unlike a potato chip. That was perfect. That was what I wanted. Was I enjoying the cookie or was I enjoying how the cookie was not crispy and covered with salt? As I plunged into the darkness, I couldn’t help but extrapolate the question. What do people like about a piece of writing? Do they like its tenor, its cadence, its insights? Or do they like that it doesn’t suck?

Depends on why you read, I think. Depends whether you’re here for sustenance or to be mindlessly distracted by the literary equivalent of a lava lamp. Let’s face it: people need cookies to live, and there’s a vast setup that surrounds them. This setup, while fun if you’re in an altered state, is not ancillary to the cookie. Its purpose is to distract you. But you can still enjoy the cookie on its own merits. You can leave the pretty things and rob yourself of stimulus. You can concentrate and see that the cookie would be sweet even if this weary earth had never seen a single damned potato chip. That’s reading.

But it’s OK if you just want to watch GFTV.

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New shoes

Whoo. That was a heck of a thing.

I don’t shop much. When I do shop, I tend to come away with the barest of essentials, which usually do not include things like clothes. Until about last month, I had worn the same threadbare shoes for the last five years. Yes, five years. A little superglue here, a few stitches there, and a ton of black shoe polish went a long way toward keeping those babies looking fresh. I realized that I actually had to get rid of them when someone pointed out that they were mostly just a shoe-shaped glob of glue, stitching and goopy shoe polish that rubbed off and left fecal-looking streaks on absolutely everything, particularly the nice clean floors at work.

Learning that I have been rude is one of the few things that will prompt me to immediate action, and to action I sprang. In the name of efficiency, I proceeded to a big box, a jungle of depressing fabric, appliances and synthetics whose name I will not mention. The people who worked there seemed uninterested in my problem. I wear a size 7 men’s shoe, preferably a solid color and nothing weird. My life is weird enough, thanks. I don’t need funky shoes.

But every damn shoebox I pulled off this place’s shelves was missing its right member. I tried Converse, Dockers, Sketchers, and about five other brands that I’ve never even heard of. No rights. Eventually, I went to the sales associate to ask why.

“We don’t know,” she said. The effort it took her not to groan deepened the lines on her face until she looked ancient and exhausted. “It’s company policy. We’re not allowed to talk about it, but it’s been that way since 2009.” I asked her if her boss would have more information. Her eyes hardened immediately. I knew I’d made a mistake. She grabbed her name tag and pulled it forward so that I could read it without looking at her chest. The little square of blue and white plastic identified her as the store manager. That was a bit embarrassing, but what really gave me pause was that it also listed her blood type.

I decided to leave.

After a few hours wandering around looking for a way out, I chanced upon a golden thread, probably pulled off some high fashion cardigan or tunic by another wanderer. It was wrapped around the necks and wrists of blank-featured white mannequins and stretched between them like the cordon at some bizarre opening night ritual. I followed it. Unfortunately, I chose the wrong direction first and soon ended up staring at a door marked “Employees Only.” The thread was suspended between a stray nail in the wall and the crack between the closed door and the jamb. I didn’t feel like an employee and suspected I’d be recruited or something if I proceeded through, so I turned around and went back the other way. 

It took a long, long time to find the exit. I had to stop and rest several times. I think I slept once. It’s weird how details like that haze away when you’re in an environment where the lights never go off. I was exhausted in a wide, bloodshot way that eventually bordered on a kind of psychosis. Articles of clothing seemed to reach out for me as I passed. They seemed to whisper things about me that I’d never told anyone, things about my childhood altar serving in the Church and my family, who I left hundreds of miles away to move to this place, and all the time I’d wasted of my short life playing video games. You are an addict waiting to happen, hissed the blouses and the belts and the khakis. You are a latent gameoholic, alcoholic, shopaholic. Buy things. Consume until you die. It is your fate.

What kept me going was that I’d read about this somewhere before. Big box stores optimize their layouts to get people a little lost. That way, they need to spend more time looking at stuff. The longer they look, the more likely they’ll pick up extra things that they never intended to get. Knowing this, I managed to avoid buying anything, though if there was food, I’d gladly have spent a few dollars on it. Maybe that’s the next big retail innovation: hot dog stands among the groves of slacks and camisoles.

When I finally reached the end of the thread, I nearly cried. There was the exit. Daylight, even. My shoes were finally in pieces. It was three days later. My wife had left several dozen frantic messages on my phone, which all appeared the instant I passed through the grimy automatic glass doors. My first action was to run to her and tell her that she had been right all along about the big boxes, that I was finally free and would never leave her for life in a modern labyrinth. 

Then, I proceeded to a boutique booterie in downtown Salem, where I paid a pretty penny for a very nice pair of locally made, artisanal shoes. Well, actually, I paid seventy-five bucks. I guess that’s not so bad, right? I’m still not sure what shoes ordinarily cost, but compared to three days of your life, $75 is a pretty good deal. And at least the shoemaker provided both left and right shoes free of extra charge.

I guess I’ll be buying local from now on.


Just living here, I get smarter


Even in the ‘burbs, the Greater Boston Area is known for its superb educational opportunities.


Strange Times are Here, Strange Days Are Back Again

So, three months ago, at the behest of forces real and imaginary (but mostly for a job,) I moved to Salem, Massachusetts.
I may as well have moved to Timbuktu. In my hometown of Nelson, New York, neighbors responded to my plans with chortles of disbelief. “Why,” they would ask, “would you want to leave all this?” And they’d sweep their arm wide, wide over the hilly upstate New York landscape to indicate the great and beloved treasure of Nelson: the dairy cow.
Where I come from, dairy cows alone outnumber humans roughly three to one. Why would I ever want to leave Nelson? How about the impending cow uprising for starters?
Also, Boston. It had been my dream since high school to run off to a Big City, get a job where I could use my brain, and be a Great Big Dyke in a house by the sea without molestation or grief. Freedom beckoned from the coast. Restaurants and public transportation beckoned. Provincetown Women’s Weekend beckoned very hard – I had pictures to prove it.
And, one day, while minding my own business, I got a job in a library on the North Shore.
Halle-freaking-lujah!
The hopeful little lamp I carried for Boston turned into a full-fledged genie overnight. I got a sweet bachelor pad and a CSA and trucked my cat, my books, and my motorcycle out to Salem over a weekend.
Then, rent came due.
Then I had to see a doctor.
Then I got my first paycheck – and heard the word “Taxachussets” for the first time.
Life remains fairly rosy. I wouldn’t return to Nelson for the world. My job rocks, for one thing. My boss is legitimately great. Salem’s always got something going on, and anyway I’m not sure I could get my cat back into the carrier after the last six-hour car ride. But life’s different here. It’s expensive and full of strange twists. It’s the first real challenge I’ve ever had. Frankly, it’s exactly what I needed.
This blog will chronicle my take on living in Greater Boston, from the food to the fines to the freaky goings-on. Boston via country mouse: what could be better? I even like to think that maybe, just maybe, YOU are a pansy in a bed of petunias somewhere and are considering a Big Jump. Jump away, my friend. If I can do this, you’ve got proof that even the least civilized of hicks can make it anywhere.